DERANGE LIFE

Samar malik

Daastan Publishing

First Published in Pakistan by Daastan PVT LTD (2025)

House # A-41, Madni Street, Lala Rukh, Wah Cantt, Punjab 47040

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Text copyrights © Samar Malik

Edited by: Syed Ommer Amer

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ISBN 978-969-696-980-8

To my husband, the wind beneath my wings. You remind me to chase my dreams, even when the skies are stormy, and you stand by me with a quiet strength that fuels my every step forward. Your love makes anything feel possible, and for that, I dedicate this to you.

Table of Contents

Section 1 – love & heart break                            01

Section 2 – identity & self-discovery                  12

Section 3 – hope & renewal                                20

Section 4– pain & despair                                 27

Section 5 – reflection & nature                         36

Section 6 – inner conflict & mental turmoil     45

Section 7– resilience & transformation             54

Section 8 – existence & mortality                      61

Section 9 – society and isolation                        68

Section 10 – memories & nostalgia                   76

Section 11– complexity of relationships             83

SECTION – 1

LOVE &
HEART BREAK

“One day you will miss me,” echoes through the cracks of love lost and found. Love burns red, igniting passion and desire, yet leaves chains “of my own creation” binding me to its truth. I tread unchosen paths, “dreaming through tears that refuse to settle,” as love reveals both its beauty and betrayal. Each story weaves a paradox—aching, tender, and unforgettably human.

MISSED

the endless chatter we shared
the bond that defied time
for love, we bent and broke
those cherished moments
are now only mine

one day
you will miss me

time forced us
onto a narrow path
we danced on jagged rocks
blind in the dark
but for me
this lush green walk
is still life

one day
you will miss me

this pain
steals my sleep
my thoughts will find you
my aching soul
remembers the day
you broke my heart
and walked away

one day
you will miss me

when you return
you will find me
drenched in blood
from collecting the pieces
of what we once were

my memory
is nothing but suffering

one day
you will miss me

FOLLOW

i follow you
on an unchosen path
i dream of you
through tears
that refuse to settle

years of this mystery
remain unsolved—
why did i place my heart
into the flames?

i love you
with a broken soul
my words echo back to me
but every time
i listen closely
they tell me
a different story

RED

red is the color of love
it inspires passion
and ignites desire
a shade that opens
a thousand doors
to heaven

my world is crumbling
and i want to stop
the pain inside me

unexpected moments
draw us closer
as fire burns
through my body

but i believe
your love
will cool the flames

PASSION

my passion has torn me apart
my desires consume me
leaving only a treacherous soul

old things have found new paths
life throws me into chaos
yet i strive to hold onto the old me

a deep desire to be close
to someone, forever
in the purest form

JUST

just because
i am in love
does not mean
i will accept
everything it brings

just because
my heart is empty
does not mean
i cannot
celebrate joy

just because
i live in the past
does not mean
i am not afraid
of the future

just because
i pretend not to care
does not mean
i do not dream
under the stars

just because
my feet are planted
on the ground
does not mean
i do not long
for the sky

just because
darkness surrounds me
does not mean
i do not crave
the light

FLAW

i clasp my hands tightly
this time
i will not let you go

from the corner of my eye
i see the cracks
in the mask you wear
the delusion of you
unfolds

i want to run
but the chains
i forged myself
hold me in place

these fetters
are my creation
of love
wrapped around my ankles
like a fatal embrace

he will become
a prisoner
of the memories
i cannot release

he will move on
to deceive again
and here i will wait
to rewrite my story
of love
woven with betrayal

LOVE

a cryptic soul
possessed by demons
nestled in a delirious past

a dark road carries my thoughts
into the pit of an unlit abyss
i hold a basket
filled with soaked truth
but it’s rotting
with all the lies

my truth is bitter
but the lie is pure
life is tangled
but if i roar
i will break free

SECTION – 2

IDENTITY &
SELF DISCOVERY